I get tired more often. But, I don’t think I need to take vitamins, I just need a good vacation.
I’m pretty convinced my brain’s deteriorating. Perhaps, I need to stop thinking for a while, but that’s just impossible.
I’m obviously forcing myself to accomplish daily tasks. Unlike before when I was so positive about everyday, acting like the dumb and happy protagonist of a story.
Are these the price of facing a handful of responsibilities ?
or are these just signs of losing the direction I assumed I have set before long?
I accepted the challenges, I tried to give it a good start, but only to find myself alienated from the real essence and value of what I am actually doing. And I just realized that in the midst of all these commotions I have created within myself, I forgot all about my mantra to “Keep Moving Forward”. (Pretty pathetic)
Perhaps, I need to take somebody else’s advise. That when you’re losing the motivation towards things, and unable to hold on to your priorities, you have to look back to why you started doing such things in the first place. Reflect whether or not it’s still worth to continue to doing it. And be reminded of what is at stake if you just give up.
Even if it takes flashing the “Keep Moving Forward” banner inside my head from time to time just to boost myself, then so be it. Being positive and wholehearted towards things had been my original weapon. I guess it’s time I sharpen it once more…